Fun Time Shopping with Mom

With everything that has happened in our family these past two months we have had little time to relax and BAM here comes Thanksgiving, then Dad gets his knee replaced, then Bman's Birthday, then Christmas and the New Years Eve Wedding of the year.  It is a whole lot but it's all going to be fun.  Well maybe not the surgery but the rest.  So mom and I want shopping today at Ross Park mall to get Christmas gifts just incase she is tied up after dad's surgery.  We had a wonderful time.  She called me a smurf because of a hat I tried on and the fact that I seem to have lost an inch in height.  If you see this inch please send it home immediately.  I love spending that quality time with my mom looking at cloths eating lunch and just catching up.  I am going to keep this post short I am sleepy.  More tomorrow.

What a Day.

We had a soccer game we won it was at 9 A.M. I hardly remember it so early on a Saturday.  Anyway, we were leaving and I get a call my Friend is calling to let me know that a Friend of our's son who was in an accident may not make it.  I reached out for my Bman's hand and just held on.  He said what is wrong Mom and being the Mother that I have always been told him the truth.  I hesitated because we have been surrounded by death a lot these past few months and he is almost 12 but, it's so much for me to handle let alone him.  He held my hand so tight and said when will it stop.  He then said I wish there was one day a year when no-one died.  Truer words have never been spoken.  We went to Barnes and Noble ,I love book stores and it makes me sad that they are fading away,  we wandered around and looked at science kits, games, he wanted a metal model to put together we picked the Black Pearl.  We then went to look for goosebumps books.  His teachers and I have been pushing him to read more and he is finally into it.  I discovered about 10 I have yet to read I love the feel of the book, the smell of the paper, the chrispness of the page, and the snapping of the spine.  You cannot get that on a e-reader.  I did by a Richard Castle book yes the Character from Castle apparently there are books no one knows who writes them.  Then we went to look for a hamper for him too many girly looking ones and he insisted I needed no other boots.  We ended up in 5 Below he bought a giant sticky hand.  We began the drive home it was raining and it was cold and I quickly realized the roads were freezing.  We ended up on Route 28 didn't get to far there was a massive accident on the Etna over pass so we sat.  I have a few observations from this.  

1. If the police have the entrance to the bridge blocked off everyone is going to have to go down the exit ramp why is everyone trying to cut everyone out.  

2. The burm of the road is not the road or a lane you are not going to get far and will probably cause another accident.

3. Yes we all hate traffic, we all hate to have our lives interupted but take time next  time to think about what may be happening to the people who were in such an accident they had to close down a bridge I can bet it's a lot worse than wating for traffic.

4.  Take your turn and let people in practice the zipper approach and stop being jagofff!

Spent the day with Bman today we played 3 hours of Mario Kart on the wii and I helped him build his black pearl ship.  Given the circumstances that my friend is facing I am eternaly greatful everyday that not only do I wake up but the people I love do also.  Every day is a gift and always remember there is no garuntee so if you have something to say but you are not sure if the time is right I have your answer the time is right now because who know's what tomorrow will bring and if you don't stick your neck out and say what ever it is you will regret it beleve me!    So for all of you especially with Children hug them a little harder , play a little longer, snuggle a little longer, be patient a little longer.  For your love ones never say good by say see you later.  Call your Mom, Dad, Sister, Brother, Aunts, Uncles, Cousin, and Grandparents tell them what you need to.  Love your wife and love your husband and remember how lucky we are.  When times seem the worst that they can possibly be and you do not think you will survive that is when God will hold you and keep you strong.

It's Been A While

It's been a while since I have written.  I am sitting here and thinking of why that is......Was I hiding from my feelings afraid that if I began to write I would feel things I may not want to?  Was I just too busy with being a Mom, Wife, and Employee?   Nah I was hiding my feelings.  I love to write but, not really about myself never have.  I love to talk which anyone who knows me will agree.  Hell I work for ALCOSAN and for the past two years I have been the announcer at our Open House!  I get to talk pretty much non-stop from 9 A.M. till 4 P.M. my dream job.  But, as a writer writing about myself makes me feel raw exposed as if my very soul is on display.  I can get up in front of a room full of people doesn't matter if I know them or not and give a speech, toast or even a eulogy without falling apart.  I actually love it!  Such a Rush!  But, this is harder.....feelings are so complicated especially when you are an Irish Italian Women who has a quick temper and a slow smoldering temper all rolled into one big heart that feels everyone's pain and I just want to fix it.  Yes, I am the fixer that is what I do your sad I will find out why and try to help.  Needs something I will find it.  I worry about everyone and feel their pain.  Even strangers I have to watch what I read on the internet or I will be a blubbering mess in 2 seconds.  I am very empathetic which I feel is a great trait but a hard one also.  So anyway what have I been hiding from.  Let's see I had a friend get shot and murdered in August.  Then my Aunt my second mother passed away in September and not even a week later I had another Aunt pass.  I thought I would be stronger and not break down I am the fixer. Yeah not so much.  I was able to go to work the next day when my first Aunt passed and I gave a Eulogy to her in the Church.  Everyone was worried I would fall apart.  I said no I need to do this and I will not fall apart.  I have a B.A. in Communications Emphasis Public Relations like I said I can just shut it off and do what needs to be done.  My biggest worry was walking up the alter and not tripping on the steps.  I had no paper I had no real clear idea what I was going to say.  I knew the end that was all.  I had to do it I had to honor one of the strongest women I have ever known and she would have kicked my ass if I broke down.  I then went on to go to work that Saturday and do our Open House I kept saying I am O.K.  Then that Tuesday I call home on my way home from work and ask my husband what is wrong and he say's I don't want to tell you.  I knew immediately that my Aunt on my Dad's side who was on hospice had passed.  I could not speak.  I was not ok I just shut off.  I had to go to the mall to get a few things I do not remember a thing.  I went to work the next day and the day after and the day after this time I said I am not ok.  My co-workers knew because I did not talk those days unless I needed to.  I got to go to to Connecticut to be with my cousins but I was not ok.  Its November and I am not OK I am probably not going to be ok and funny as that sounds it is ok.  Life changes and you have to change with it if  you don't you will miss.  You have to feel all the emotions good or bad that is how we grow.  I understand I am all over the place in this post but, I am trying to free write and see how it goes.

What I Think: What Happens when the Glass Slipper Falls Off In D...

What I Think: What Happens when the Glass Slipper Falls Off In D...: Every girl out there I do not care who you are or what you say we all want the "Fairy Tale" the "Happily Ever After" the stuff story books...

What I Think: What Happens when the Glass Slipper Falls Off In D...

What I Think: What Happens when the Glass Slipper Falls Off In D...: Every girl out there I do not care who you are or what you say we all want the "Fairy Tale" the "Happily Ever After" the stuff story books...

What Happens when the Glass Slipper Falls Off In Defense of Kim Kardashian.

Every girl out there I do not care who you are or what you say we all want the "Fairy Tale"  the "Happily Ever After"  the stuff story books and Disney Movies are made of.  Why should Kim Kardashian be any different?  She just wanted to find her "Soul Mate" just because she did it on T.V. in front of Millions does not mean she is any different from me the girl from Pittsburgh.  The only difference she did it on T.V. in front of millions and by the time it was over and that glass slipper fell off she realized she made a mistake.  I have made mistakes in this department.  I am on my Third Marriage.  My first was my "Fairy Tale"  big expensive wedding big dress,  big mistake which I realized 2 months in but we lasted 9 months.  The only difference between what I did and what Kim did is I only did it in front of family and friends which is humiliating enough especially when they say to you after the break up we knew it would never work.  REALLY???  And you did not tell me why?  Because I would have not listened I was 24 I knew it all I got so involved with the wedding I forgot why I was even doing it.  Kim did the same.  Why should we as a society or have made the Kardashians and all the other Reality Stars judge them when they only screw up?  We made them as popular as we have now mothers want to Boycott them.....I have a question for those haters out there is it because what the Kardashians show the good and bad remind you of the mistakes you are making in your own life and you cannot handle looking at your own mistakes.  Imagine getting a divorce and not only having to tell your family but Millions of people.  Why should we shield our children from this?  This is reality perhaps if there would have been a Kim Kardashian out there when I had my first marriage I would have not done it!  She is a great example that the Fairy Tale is just that Fairy Tales stories.  My heart breaks for Kim and anyone else who has to go through a divorce and I say to those haters out there Unless you have walked in her Stilettos keep you opinions to yourself.  If you don't like what they do on the show change the channel.

The night before....

I got my bottle of Healthe Trim today and was so excited! I ripped open the package like a 5 year old does on
Christmas Day. Could this be the the weight loss solution I have been searching for or another scam? It has a 60 day free trial so what is there to loose? No pun intended. So I pull out the enclosed instructions one small sheet. Take two pills a day does contain caffeine about as much as one large cup. I scoff at that inwardly I drink twice that amount in the morning. Anyway, I continue to read on there are no dietary restrictions that is what they say and technically there are not. HOWEVER, there are what I will call liquid restrictions. You cannot drink any coffee regular or decafe, no tea regular or decafe no sports drinks, no pop (this is soda for all you non-pittsburghers)regular or diet, nothing with splenda sweet n low ect and no chocolate. Apparently, Healthe Trim will not work if you drink these things. I know some people are probably saying ok not too bad...now for some background on yours truly. I live on caffeine love pop and eat chocolate this is bad. But, I am tired of weighing 184 pounds and not getting anywhere. I have been doing weight watchers lost about 10 pounds and it has stopped so I am boning to give this a try. I am starting tomorrow will I be able to function? Will I flip out due to caffein? Will my son and husband move out because I have become a raging bitch? All this on day one....We will see. So to recap I weigh approximately 184 pounds and want to loose at least 40. Here we go world look out. Oh and if you are reading this and you are in the Pittsburgh area if you hear of a crazy lady running around begging for coffee that is me. Till tomorrow.